Everything!
I am happy to report a more positive mindset. This is part of the reduction in depression and part of the drug reaching its lifespan in my system. I am about 20 days free from the antipsychotic I was taking.
I have real feelings. I mean, I feel things in my gut and when I’m on medication, that tingling isn’t there. I had two restless evenings, my appetite decreased (common for me) and I didn’t feel irritable. All good signs. I watch my tolerance levels. How well I tolerate “life” is a good indicator of my stability.
A while ago I mentioned making a journal for a colleague. I said I would take pictures but I didn’t. Damn laziness. Well, the recipient of the magazine commissioned me to make two for her daughters. He will give them a present at Christmas. The two are close in age and are pre-teens (12 years old). Luckily I have some covers and signatures already written for each other. All they require is binding and embellishments. I am satisfied with the content of the pages for a teenage magazine. There is enough space that encourages writing. Most, if not all, pages have the rule and are stark white. My design theory says that teenagers aren’t so vintage, so white paper is perfect! (I could be wrong) I have chosen a solid color to decorate in each magazine. One sea green and the other purple.
Idol Time
During my downtime, I went to YouTube. You would think that social media? Just curious. I feel like it’s more of an educational platform, but that’s neither here nor there. I mention this because I came across a DIYer who has about 77,000 subscribers – that’s a lot – and in addition to her videos, I looked at her comments section. One video had over 200 comments and she liked the first 3-5 comments and didn’t reply to one. This pisses me off enough to be here talking about it. First of all why even have the comment section available if you are not going to chat with your fans? They are obviously fans or they wouldn’t be subscribers. I am right? Second, how can someone have so many followers when they are not engaged in the community?
I am not subscribed to anyone’s account. I’m special. But I accidentally hit the subscribe button while I was on her channel. I immediately unsubscribed because I hadn’t seen enough of her channel. Then I went to the comment section and saw her lack of dedication. For that alone, I won’t be subscribing to her channel. And it’s a shame because she had some decent content, at least that’s what I saw watching three of her videos. I know my following doesn’t make or break her. She is established and I congratulate her, but how? From content alone? Am I expecting too much from a stranger who provides inspiration to the DIY community?
I’ll be honest, I just think it’s rude not to like at least one additional comment. I mean, every comment she left encouraged her to keep creating, keep doing what she’s doing, etc… All positive, confidence boosting love and nothing. No response from her. Like, how dare he. How? Why; 🤔 I literally stopped what I was doing to add this to this post. I was going to put this in her comments section but thought better of it what is the point? Seeing this infuriates me and yet it’s none of my business.
What I can do is come to the platform I use and express my gratitude to those of you who care to read what I have to say. No, I’m not offering step-by-step instructions on how to do something. Heck, I don’t even share information backed by science. I’m just a woman sharing her story and perspective on the world. The most important aspect of sharing is recognizing the audience that encourages, supports, and engages with me. This is the least I can do. With all that being said, thanks to each and every one of you who reads, comments or likes. I will always keep the mindset of importance to my space. I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to read what I have to say.
Creative Fun
Moving on. I am determined to learn to draw a face (see above). I have practiced different nose, eye and lip styles. I haven’t gotten the hair or ears out yet, but that will come in due time. Here are some sketches I’ve done. I’m obsessed with drawing them 😂
Not too shabby for a newbie, if I do say so myself. Progress, not perfection. I teach myself to highlight and contour through makeup tutorials on Pinterest. I’m really just using the images of a few pins to guide me. I’ve done a little shading, but I’m not familiar enough to shade a face using a pencil. I will, however, use vibrant oil pastels, using light and dark variations of the same color. You can see it in the first photo. I am very proud of her. I like.
Well, that’s it for me. What do you think; Don’t forget to share your opinion on the YouTube hoopla. Am I being overly dramatic?
